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Apology and Confession  

I wanted you all to hear it directly from me first.

I lied to the sims community.

About everything.

I started out with the truth, but the first lie started, and then the next. Eventually it just snowballed out of control.

To tell you the total truth, I'm not the Bubbles you guys thought I was. I'm just a sixteen year old with emotional issues and really low self esteem hiding behind a screen.

 Lying on the internet is habit to me by now. I wish I was somebody else. So I became them. I became their world. I became who I wanted to be, and it felt great for awhile, but then I told too big of a lie, I pushed my limits. I tried to stay me, but stay anonymous.  I couldn't do it. I know I took it way too far.  You'll never have to hear my lies again. This is my confession, and I'm sorry for all the lies I've dished out. Bubbles, Derric, Connor, and baby Annabelle are not real people. I made them up as part of a fantasy, what I wanted to be like. I'd also like to clarify that bubbles1321 on Moonlight Dragon, MissBubbles on Gos and Insiminator, are all me pretending to be them. I'm done. I was caught on to before it totally consumed me. I'm sorry I'm such a liar and got attached. I never meant for it to go so far, and I'm so sorry...

I also promise to speak the truth, or nothing at all from this point forward.

jenga218jenga218 on July 22nd, 2011 02:39 pm (UTC)

Posting that took a lot of guts and a lot of willpower. Hopefully sekrits will remember that tonight.

- Still your friend
skellington7dskellington7d on July 22nd, 2011 06:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you for sticking around to try and right your wrongs.
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medleymistymedleymisty on July 22nd, 2011 09:31 pm (UTC)
Re: You don't know me, but ...
You are awesome. I friended you. :)

And I'd like to express that same sentiment to Bubbles. Our situations aren't similar, but I've been the target of hate like what you're probably about to get.

Screw them.

They've made mistakes. They've done thing wrong. They've messed up. Hating on you is one of their ways of validating and protecting and defending themselves. They don't know you as a person, and so they're just using you as a way to project their own issues.

As long as you learn from your mistakes, it's okay. You have all sorts of value and worth. Don't let the secrets trolls take that away from you and make you feel horrible about yourself.

It's just - I've wallowed in guilt. It's not fun and it's not productive and it's terribly damaging. You've shown strength and courage, in admitting your mistakes. I figure - admitting your mistakes, taking responsibility for them, and learning from them is all anyone can really ask. No one is perfect, and no one gets out of this life without making some mistakes. Some much much worse than this - one thing that helps me is to remember that at least I'm not, like, Gaddafi or Hitler or someone like that. ;)

joandsarahjoandsarah on July 22nd, 2011 09:37 pm (UTC)
I think it's very brave of you to come out and post the truth and not just up and disappear. (hugs)

hooptytrib: High Mach FTWhooptytrib on July 22nd, 2011 10:18 pm (UTC)
Heck yes! Movement toward resolution rather than a fanning of the flames: Ur doin' it right!
walter_oesau: oh god whywalter_oesau on July 22nd, 2011 10:30 pm (UTC)
It's okay, Bubbles- not matter what happens, the fact that you confessed and are trying to make things right is a great start.

I'll still be your friend too. I think we all were teenagers at one point and struggled with low self-esteem.

If you ever need to talk privately, feel free to shoot me a PM either on GOS or here on old LJ.

pieridaepieridae on July 23rd, 2011 04:24 am (UTC)
Agreed with the posters. We've all done similar. A million years ago when I was 18 or 19 I chatted up a guy on Yahoo games nightly, much of what I told him was, while not straight up lies, let's just say it was the truth vastly exaggerated. I felt guilty when we actually started talking on the phone and I just cut off all contact. The urge to make your life seem better via the internet is a strong one, I know, and so do lots of others who won't ever have the guts to do what you did and admit it. Kudos to you, girl.
sparky_fusebox on July 23rd, 2011 12:59 pm (UTC)
I've been hurt by much worse in my time.
You did the right thing in being honest. I just hope you stay that way.
I know theres some good in you, you said and did those nice things for me at GOS. Evereybody lies, I won't defend what you did or condone it. But what matters is what you do now with yourself.
delicatesoul88eileen0001 on July 25th, 2011 02:02 am (UTC)
This is brave!
I know you don't know me, but.....
What you just did is very brave. And honest too. I haven't come across that many people who are this honest (besides my family, of course). What I mean to say is it's easy for stuff to happen when hiding behind a computer screen - but it's much harder to admit one's faults -> and that's very brave.

Self-confidence is something I have struggled with all my life, and I guess you understand that. Remember, the only one who can please you is yourself. No one else.
Have an amazing week!